Welcome back today I figured I’d as the big question no one really likes to talk about. Whats your biggest fear. I mean sure there’s some of us that are afraid of heights, ( that is one for me) the dark driving to fast, etc. I mean Biggest Fear. Mine I have a lot. First and for most death. I know someday it will come but I fear it. What is after this life? I mean this can’t be it can it?
I like to think not. I do like to believe that there is another world beyond this one that we do get to see our loved ones that we have lost, or are we just going to start all over again to keep making the same mistakes that we made in the first life. Or is it going to be just nothing. I don’t know if its because I’m getting older or what but I do think about it more then I did before.
Even though that is a big one for me nothing is bigger then thinking about my son and what will happen to him. Him and my mom were very close and when she passed I seen the toll it took on him. From a seizure a week later to full on meltdowns because he couldn’t understand one minute we were visiting her the next she was gone.
Our circle is small but we do have loving and caring people around that I know would be there to take care of him. But the thought does plague me every now and then especially when I see and older person with a disability. Now don’t get me wrong I don’t sit and dwell on this everyday but from time to time, and if you talk about it sometimes you get the people that don’t understand and say ” why you thinking of that”, ” are you sick”.
No its just my life and being a mom in this situation we may think of it more often. After a good cry and the moment passes I look at my son and thank god for him and all the time I get to be with him. Thanks for listening and let me know what your biggest fears are and what you do to cope.
When life gives you lemons 